Grace

What is real grace like? Some relate it to Religion, others relate it a state of self and for me, I relate it to a given privilege.

I was very unhappy the past few weeks with a lot of people who made use of me for their own personal gains, from schoolmates who never said a single word of appreciation for the past year exam solutions I e-mailed out to everyone, to people talking to me with no respect at all for me as a person to people who keep asking me to do this and that for them and never once doing anything back for me.

I thought that at that breaking point, I could not trust anyone anymore until Grace came into my life in unexpected ways. (I thank God for His grace even
when I no longer regard myself as a Christian, and yup, I don't like most Christians now.)

A few of my online friends stood up for me when they realised that I was very depressed over these matter of constantly getting bullied and made use of by jerks.
I then realised that there was still some hope left in trusting people.

It's hard having to juggle with coping with my illness (the side effects, the sleeplessness, the irritation, the fears, the worries, the uncertainties) along with my studies (yes, I get exam fears like anyone else but I get them on a higher scale due to my illness) with friends who left me because our beliefs/values do not click to people who left me fuming mad because they like to take advantage of me.
Then and there God reminded me that He is faithful and always will be.

Thank God its holidays now for the next 7 weeks.

So in conclusion, does Grace appear visible only in times of peace and wellness? Absolutely NOT I'd say. Grace is the provision of God that sustains me even in times of turmoil and distress when I do not feel Him near at all and yet there He is, always waiting for me.

So what do I have to say to those naysayers, jerks and leeches? Get a life, I'm getting mine back by the way.

I'll make myself more happy than before, I'm a living proof that people who suffer from Schizophrenia can do well in life too and even better that normal people.

(C) 2006,2007,2008,2009 Absolutely Daniel Yoleh.