Heart Talk

Dear blog readers, have you ever felt you're in a situation where you can't find your standing and felt lost? I felt lost in the past, not knowing why was I born into this world and why was I living the life I lived.

To tell you honestly, even though I was saved at the age of 15, life became even more tougher for me. I had to deal with demonic possessions, schizophrenia, examination stress, depression and rejection by my very own Church which chased me out as they were afraid that my demonic possessions would stumble younger believers!

I was deluded, I thought that if I became a Christian, things would become better, that I would have more friends, and that I could find acceptance. But, I found none of these ever since I became Christian. I found more heartaches, pain, rejection, loneliness and anger as I walked my early Christian life.

I always thought that the problem was the people around me. I was so wrong, the problem was actually me myself. Why do I say so?

I trusted people too easily, often putting my reliance upon them, I tried to get people's approval for everything and anything I did. This just doesn't sound like a Christian huh? Even a Christian brother said that my speaking in tongues was demonic!

Life simply became a BIG mess for me. However, God remained faithful and so did my family who stood by me through my dark times.

It wasn't easy coming out of the void.
Nor was it easy learning to trust people again.
Still I have done it and am who I am today.

Love yourself, pamper yourself and always accept yourself who you are. Even if you have so many faults that you have to rent a stadium to hold the printouts of every single fault and weakness you have!

You are made the way you are. Don't live up to people's expectations, be proud of yourself starting from today.