My Thoughts & Feelings

Schizophrenia is an illness I thought I had it well managed after all these years of struggle. I slipped back into it under a lot of stress the previous month from what happened at home and having to juggle with school.

Many people are curious to know. What is Schizophrenia?

Schizophrenia (pronounced /ˌskɪtsəˈfrɛniə/ or pronounced /ˌskɪtsəˈfriːniə/), from the Greek roots skhizein (σχίζειν, "to split") and phrēn, phren- (φρήν, φρεν-, "mind") is a psychiatric diagnosis that describes a mental disorder characterized by abnormalities in the perception or expression of reality. It most commonly manifests as auditory hallucinations, paranoid or bizarre delusions, or disorganized speech and thinking with significant social or occupational dysfunction. Onset of symptoms typically occurs in young adulthood,^[1] with approximately 0.4–0.6%^[2][3] of the population affected. Diagnosis is based on the patient's self-reported experiences and observed behavior. No laboratory test for schizophrenia currently exists.^[4]

Studies suggest that genetics, early environment, neurobiology, psychological, and social processes are important contributory factors; some recreational and prescription drugs appear to cause or worsen symptoms.

-Quoted from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Schizophrenia

I've been seeing a lot of hallucinations and had my train of thought affected by recent events, just on Friday, I went to my Psychiatrist for a consultation and I told him of the difficulties I've been having since my illness came back.

I've not been able to attend school because of this. (Due to my illness, I feel confused and disrupted easily which is affecting my studies.)

If you really wanna know how it affects me so much, here we go:

1.) I see things that should not be there.
2.) I hear things that no one else hears.
3.) I think things that are irrational and make me panic easily.
4.) And much more which I shall not disclose.

I shared with my classmates a little bit about my illness during my Communication Skills presentation and Personal Development presentation in my first year of study at NYP and hoped to get more people to know or perhaps understand about this illness that affects people.

I broke down a lot of times over the week when I told my Dad that my mind was being disrupted again by this illness and also at the doc's.

My emotions and train of thought are still not all right and I need time to be able to stabilize myself again but I'll be fine.

Sometimes all I need is just someone to tell me that I'll be all right and everything is going to be OK, at the end of the day, all I need is some understanding and tactfulness.

And to those who discriminate against people who suffer from Schizophrenia, shame on you.

(C) 2006,2007,2008,2009 Absolutely Daniel Yoleh.