When Christian Leaders Have Wronged You

There was an incident in the past when my cellgroup leader accused me of not having a heart for God and not loving God, why? Read on.

I had to attend my Air Force Unit's camp one night and couldn't make it for a church conference. I called my cellgroup leader to inform him, straightaway he said these, "Daniel, I'm upset with you. You do not have a heart for God, you choose to go for your unit's camp instead of going to the House of God."

It was that senseless accusation and many other more to come during my time in that cellgroup.

I carried countless baggages of hurt, mistrust and anger for years even after I had left City
Harvest Church, I thought that by leaving, my problems will be solved. Hell, no. I have been bothered by them up to this time, many times my heart cried out for justice, for an apology from the Christians who hurt me deeply.

I was angry with God and His people, the Christians. I hated them all. I wanted all Christians to go to hell. I hated them to the core.

Still, God is good. He spoke to me through my godmum, my younger sister and some friends that I should not fault every single Christian even though some of them had hurt me deeply.

That night, when I gave up on God and His Church, God spoke to me, "Will you forgive me?". I said, "Yes" but I didn't meant it. I was still angry and bitter.

Earlier on, as I was walking outside my home to a shopping mall, I asked God this, "Dad, can I get to know You from the start all over again? Before all this mess happened."

His reply, "Yes son."

Its either I choose to continue hating Christians for life or get my life picked up again from scratch.

I choose to forgive every single Christian who had had hurt me, accused me, and called me names.

I forgive my first Church for kicking me out because "I would stumble younger believers" due to my possession problems.

I forgive my second Church for being a place of hurt, judgement and mistrust.

It's poison to my soul when I held onto all these baggages. God told me this, "Give Me your baggages son, let Me carry them for you."

I now realized what it meant when Jesus said that, "It is finished!".

My hurts, shame, bitterness and anger all end on the Cross tonight.

I pray for strength to know my Heavenly Father again as well as His people.